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Challenge IssuerRelapseWarrior
Challenge NameTo Live a Lie
Challenge TypePersonal Challenge
Category Multiple Crossings
DescriptionChallenge; To Live a Lie
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PROMPT; I can't do this anymore. I don't want to wake up each morning and have to find a reason to get out of bed, when I go to school I don't want to look at my friends, the closest thing I've ever had to a family, and not know who they are. I can't keep looking in a mirror and see a stranger staring back at me. It feels like I'm sleeping, that one day, I'll wake up, and I'll be that scared little boy again, wishing him hardest for someone, anyone to love him, silently pleading for just a little comfort. I can't tell you exactly when, but somewhere over the years that little boy died a dogs death, just faded away without anyone being the wiser, anyone just giving a damn enough to open their eyes, to see him wasting away right in front of them, and a harder, colder being took his place. A being whose shell got harder, thicker, colder with every ill-maintained crack and purposeful jab until it was a wall impenetrable to all but the barest of sunlight needed to survive.
Like a dog indeed.
And then there's me, with my masks and my smiles, and long sleeved shirts in summer, with tears that don't come and hopes that don't fly. The one that everybody sees but no one cares to know. And I'm tired, I'm so, so tired, and I try to move on, to keep walking, breathing, blinking, to ignore this *monster* taking residence in my chest, but I've been doing it for so *long* and I just want to rest.
Some part of me knows that if I close my eyes right now I won't ever wake up again, and yet, I can't bring myself to care.

Crossover; Any and all of the X-men/wolverine movies, animations or comics. There's a lot of wiggle room here so be creative.
Requirements;Xander-centered. This also requires a non-human!Xander, what he becomes or how is entirely up to you. There are no pairing requirements or restrictions, slash or het, love is love, all I ask is for their to be no bashing! of characters without solid reasons behind them.
How Xander ends up with the X-men, is again, entirely up to you but I will ask that it happens within the first 5 chapters and that this story is mostly told from Xander's P.O.V. I will also ask that he not spill his entire past/sob story at the beginning of the story. That's just bad business, and who doesn't enjoy dramatic irony?
The prompt is not a fixture. It is a tool to get the ball rolling, so to speak. Feel free to use it, its there for you. Keep in mind to read between the lines and, please, give credit where its do.I know that this seems like an angst/ hurt/comfort story, but that does not mean it has to be so! This is the canvas to your paints, I've only given you the foundation.
Please, email me about any concerns or questions you might have at
And I will try my best to get back to you in a timely manner.
The prompt is property of mon and wrtitten by moi.
Have fun,
Relapse Warrior
Challenge Date15 Nov 12
Last Updated15 Nov 12

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