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This story is No. 1 in the series "Hyena Blues". You may wish to read the series introduction first.

Summary: Buffy hesitates - non-consensual/rape warning

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DC Universe > Surprise CrossovercmdruhuraFR215078,0004120115,39116 Jul 0826 May 14Yes

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Musings and Revelations I

Rating: R - Violent imagery
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the recognizable characters. I receive no profits from this. It is just for fun.
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Summary: Buffy hesitates.

AN: It’ll be a bit before returning to Xander’s plot line.


After sending Angel on his way, Jenny set up three more protection wards at the other cardinal directions from the front door. Once she finished she went up to check on her charge.

Buffy looked even smaller than usual lying on the king-sized bed. Her face had a peaceful look to it that she’d never seen on the petite blonde before, especially not since Xander’s death.

The fact that Willow hadn’t been consoling Buffy since Xander’s death told the computer teacher that the redhead was so deeply involved with her own grief that she wasn’t seeking mutual support from others who were also affected. Jenny had recognized Willow’s feeling towards Xander almost within a day of her first arriving at the school. Therefore it was natural that his death would impact her greatly but it apparently went further than Jenny would have thought.

Surprisingly, just the day before, Cordelia’s dressing down of Harmony’s inappropriate comment about Xander’s heritage where Buffy could hear it showed more consideration for Buffy’s grief than Willow had in the previous several days.

Jenny liked Willow and her thirst for knowledge that was curtailed only by her lack of good social skills. She had seen a positive improvement since Buffy’s arrival but it was far from totally dissipating the redhead’s insecurities and shyness. She was concerned about how the bright young woman would cope now that she would no longer have any close friends to help her mature and be more confident.

Rupert would hardly be able to fill that role though he would definitely try to be supportive. His having to keep the fact that Buffy was actually alive from her would also inhibit any close ties between them from being formed.

She wondered if the new Hellmouth Guardian would be of a comparable age and be able to befriend her.

Taking a last look at the sleeping Slayer, Jenny went back down stairs to await Angel’s return from his errand with Giles.

She was greatly concerned that the souled vampire was her only ally at the moment, because that meant that she had to keep Buffy under an enchanted sleep to ensure his cooperation with the Powers’ plan.

Of course keeping her asleep put off the confrontation where Jenny would have to explain the Powers’ plan to her. Definitely not a moment she was looking forward to. And since Whistler told her that nobody, not even Angel, could be there when that happened, Jenny would be facing a situation similar to juggling vials of nitroglycerin, with one hand and blindfolded. And that scenario was with the protection wards Whistler told her to use.

It was only now, when things were relatively sedate, that the enormity of the task she’d undertaken began to sink in. Things had happened so fast that evening that she didn’t even have a change of clothes at the mansion. Whistler really hadn’t given her much time to prepare to carry out his plan for Buffy or Darla either. That her arrival at the Bronze had barely been in time to save Buffy from Darla attested to that.

She knew she needed to contact her Uncle Enyos soon to request the Tribe’s aid and inform him why she was leaving Sunnydale. She just hoped that Whistler was right that the assurances of vengeance against Darla and Angelus from the Powers would gain her tribe’s cooperation in protecting Buffy as well as accepting her new assignment as Buffy’s guardian.

Jenny knew they would both be hurt at having to leave loved ones behind, even if Rupert and she had only flirted so far, she had been growing quite fond of him. However, she was more worried about how being thought dead by her family and friends would affect Buffy. Even with the incentive to go along with faking her death that Whistler had told Jenny to use, she knew that it was not going to be a painless situation for the young woman.


Giles and Angel waited for 20 minutes to ensure Willow had fallen asleep. Even so their conversation was held in the kitchen with low voices.

“I don’t know much yet,” said Angel once he heard the steady breathing of a sleeping Willow from Giles’ spare bedroom. “The Powers’ messenger only told me some of the basics before sending me to the Bronze to meet you.”

Giles said nothing but nodded for Angel to continue.

“Buffy is needed elsewhere but They want her absence from the Hellmouth to be a secret even from the Council.”

“And exactly how do They expect to do that?” hissed Giles, testily. “If a new Slayer isn’t called the Council will know Buffy didn’t die like it appears she did!”

“As far as the Council is concerned, you are to tell them that because of the attack on her mother, Buffy decided to fake her own death and work in secret. Therefore they won’t be looking for a new Slayer. The Powers will be sending a new Guardian to assist you in keeping up that illusion. You and I are supposed to be the only ones that know Buffy is still alive.”

Angel handed Giles the garnet pendent that Jenny gave him and said, “This pendent will let you know that she is alright when you use ‘Lift the Veil’ while looking at it. If it glows then she’s fine.”

Giles immediately did the spell and saw the pulsing glow that mimicked a slow but steady heartbeat. He heaved a sigh of relief as the spell also allowed him to know for certain that it was indeed Buffy’s heartbeat that he was viewing. He had still been a bit apprehensive about her safety even after seeing that the body at the Bronze wasn’t hers.

“I take it that the ‘body’ was Darla’s since the description you gave the police matches what I saw” said Giles.

“Yes,” replied Angel. “She’s been placed in a magical sleep and a glamour used to make her look like Buffy. I am to deal with her after Buffy’s funeral.”

“When will you and Buffy be leaving?” asked Giles wondering if he’d be able to see his charge again before she left.

“I’m to stay here and help the new Guardian,” said Angel, clearly not happy. “The Powers’ messenger will be taking her to wherever she is needed. Even I don’t know where or when.”

“I doubt that you will be allowed to see her before she leaves,” Angel added sadly, picking up on Giles’ unasked question.

There was silence for several moments after Angel spoke.

Finally Giles broke it and said, “I find it difficult to believe that Buffy would voluntarily put her mother through the grief of believing she is dead. Or Willow.”

“I don’t know how they plan to convince her but I believe the Powers aren’t giving her much choice in the matter,” replied Angel even as he wondered how Jenny was going to accomplish that as well.

“Look,” Angel continued. “I’ll try to give you more information once the Powers’ messenger lets me know. For now I need to check out what is happening in the demon community as news of Buffy’s ‘death’ spreads.”

Giles just nodded as Angel left.

He then went up to his room though he doubted he’d get much sleep.


AN: Just so there is no confusion, Whistler did not tell Jenny that Buffy was raped or that it was Buffy who caused Xander’s death. Angel doesn’t know either. Only Giles and Willow.

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