A new roommate, love, and a lie
Dawn slumped down onto her bed, exhausted. It had been a long walk home, and a difficult one for both her and Cordelia. They were still pretty weak and beat up. Dawn was still wearing just her underwear, and apparently didn’t care. Cordelia couldn’t help but admire Dawn’s small perky breast, her thin stomach, and her long legs. Biting her lower lip unconsciously Cordelia looked at her underwear. Dawn’s underwear was sheer, and Cordelia could see much of Dawn’s private region through the thin black fabric.
Suddenly she realized what she was doing and she quickly looked away, ashamed. She noticed that Anya was looking at her with a knowing look on her face, but thankfully she didn’t blurt out what was on her mind for once.
Anya flashed Cordelia a smile, and then walked over to the broken window. Luckily it was a two panned window, and only one pan was broken, the second one was still on the opposite side. She closed the window, and pulled down the blinds.
“Anya,” said Cordelia, “Thank you. I’m sorry I was mean to you. I owe you my life. I really appreciate what you did. I know it was hard for you to face Willow.”
“You’re welcome.” Said Anya with a grin. “So does that mean I can stay?”
“Yes. You can stay. I’d like that.”
“Yay.” Said Anya, leaning in to hug Cordelia, but abruptly pulled back when she remembered Cordelia was only wearing underwear and a tank top and was full of blood. “I’ll hug you tomorrow.”
“Sure.” Said Cordelia, sharing a smile with her new friend.
“Turn off the lights.” Said a tired sounding Dawn.
Anya quickly changed into shorts and a t shirt, turned off the light switch and crawled into Dawn’s bed. It was just beginning to get light outside, so the room wasn’t completely dark.
“Thank you for coming back Anya.” Said Dawn without opening her eyes.
“No Prob Dawny.” Said Anya. “Your devotion to Cordelia and your refusal to leave town even though staying meant certain death inspired me. I was walking to the bus stop when it occurred to me that it would be better to fight and lose with my friends then it would be to run for the rest of my life. At least I’d be trying. And I’d be with the people I cared about.”
Dawn smiled and opened her eyes slightly. “I’m glad.”
Cordelia was sitting on her sofa, about to lie down when Dawn spoke up.
“Cordie, you’re as exhausted and as beat up as I am. More even. Come sleep in the bed. The sofa isn’t comfy.”
“You sure?” asked Cordelia, “Wont it be cramped?”
“It’ll be fine.” Said Dawn.
So Cordelia got up off the sofa and taking her pillow with her, crawled into bed next to Dawn. “Thanks for coming for me Dawn. I appreciate it. But never do that again.”
“Don’t worry I won’t be running to be Willow’s love slave anytime soon.” Dawn said with a giggle. “And you’re welcome.”
A few minutes later Cordelia was nearly asleep, but her eyes opened again when she felt a hand reach across her mid-section and rest there.
Cordelia turned her head to look at Dawn, who was looking wide eyed back at her. “The things Willow said, are they true?”
“What things?” asked Cordelia, even know she knew full well what things.
“She said you were in love with me.” Dawn said frankly.
“Of course I love you Dawn, I’ve told you that a thousand times.”
“No.” Said Dawn. “She said you were ‘in love’ with me. Is that true?”
Cordelia was quiet for a long time as she battled with her emotions and thoughts. She wanted to tell Dawn so badly, then to lean over and give her the longest kiss in history and gently caress her perfect body. But if she told Dawn the truth, would it ruin their friendship? What if Dawn said she didn’t feel the same, which Cordelia thought realistically was probably the case. She would rather not know the answer, and still hope and fantasize about having a relationship with Dawn, than to know for sure that Dawn wasn’t interested. That would crush her, and things would never be the same between them.
She couldn’t risk it.
“No.” said Cordelia. “She said that to mess with your head. I’m sorry.”
Dawn smiled at her. “That’s what I figured.” She said as she cuddled into her, “get some rest now.”
Anya reached across Dawn to spoon her, and within minutes that’s how the three of them fell asleep, Anya cuddling Dawn and Dawn cuddling Cordelia.
Cordelia dreamt a bittersweet dream of the kiss that possibly could have been but never was.
[Stay tuned for CtVS vol. 3! Its going to be a crossover with the Terminator series. Look out for it ]