AN: As promised, the next part begins. I'm glad I've moved pass the block on this story. Much more to come. Oh, and this chapter may be short but the next is fairly long, at least as far as my writing usually goes.
I'd also like to thank the two reviewers for the last part. Your comments were very appreciated.
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Seth left behind a bit of a mess. Ryan had reverted to type and begun to silently brood, unsure of what the future had in store. While he knew the Cohens wouldn't care, he hadn’t wanted Seth to know because he didn’t want things to change. He didn’t want Seth to start wondering about him, to start wondering about their past together. Sure, he loved Seth, but he also knew that Seth loved Summer. He’d known this from the first day that they’d met and it hadn’t changed as Ryan’s feelings had slowly changed for Seth.
“Okay, that’s it. I had pegged you for a brooder, but if there is one thing I know, it is how to stop someone from brooding. Normally, if you were Angel I’d just annoy you until you stopped, but seeing as how I actually like you, I’ll do this instead.”
This turned out to be jumping Ryan’s bones. Because it was them, Ryan struggled. Particularly, since it was doing exactly this that had caused his problems. Ryan really despised people who took their anger out on others. He’d been beat up enough by his mom’s boyfriends to know that being abusive was both weak and pathetic. It was different with Xander, though. For one, Xander wasn’t a kid and was capable of defending himself. Two, Xander was goading him with sharp insults that were scarily accurate at hitting Ryan’s insecurities.
It wasn’t long until Ryan was really hitting Xander. It wasn’t, though, like Xander was just sitting there and taking it. This was a definitely brawl and Ryan was getting as much as he gave. There was no finesse to this fight: it was fuelled by Ryan’s despair and fear. The fight didn’t last long, though. Mainly because partway through, Ryan began crying and his punches became weak. It ended when Xander pulled Ryan into his lap and simply held him.
As Ryan began to quiet down, Xander started to pepper him with light kisses. Rubbing his back and being gentle. So very gentle. In many ways, this hurt Ryan even more because Xander had never been gentle before. This time, however, Xander picked Ryan up and put him back in bed. Since they were still naked, it was an easy matter for Xander’s gentle touches to turn sexual.
Still the gentleness remained. The sex was slow and dreamy. It was almost too much for Ryan, who felt drained from all the emotion. Who also felt a distant sense of elation that he’d no longer have to hide. That maybe, finally, he could just be him and not have to worry anymore.
The jolt of his orgasm brought him sharply back into reality. And as the last bit of pleasure ebbed away, he began to fall asleep. He felt Xander place one last, gentle kiss on his forehead.