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Summary: Willow, just before "When I Woke Up."

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One-shot. Another riff on "When I woke up," but not quite an answer to the challenge. Willow Rosenberg was created by Joss Whedon.


I'm not awake yet.

Oh, don't look at me like that. If I'm awake, I have to face what happened last night. The someone who is in the bed next to me. Don't think he's awake.

Yes, he, if I'm feeling what I think I'm feeling through those boxers he has on.

And that's why I'm not awake.

Because when I wake up, I'll have to explain to him, whoever it is, that last night was just a one-time thing.

When I wake up, I will still be a lesbian. Yes, a lesbian who slept with men -- one man -- in her life. But still a lesbian, with no desire to continue a relationship --

Or marriage?

Yes, or marriage. I may have been drunk last night, but I have distinctly hazy (or hazily distinct) memories of standing up and saying I do in a wedding chapel. Vegas has a lot of those, I'm told.

When I wake up, I'll have to do something about that. Because I'm not going to stay married to a man, any man, no matter how nice or wonderful he is, because last night was something of a one-time thing for me.

Getting drunkenly married is not the beginning to some great adventure. It isn't and it won't be, and anyway I have enough great adventures living my life normally. Not many people can tell you they've faced off against the end of the world once; fewer more than once; and hell, I even tried to cause it once. A marriage begun in an alcoholic stupor really doesn't rank.

Gender doesn't play into that part, so much. I wouldn't stay married to a woman under these circumstances either, though that would be easier to deal with considering that gay marriage isn't legal in most states; stupid bigots and their stupid laws.

When I wake up, maybe I'll start doing something about that; but that's in the future, I mean way in the future, and doesn't help me much in the here and now.

Of course, nothing much is, except maybe a vengeance demon, and I'm not reckless enough to go that route.

Not today, anyway.

Mentally, I take a deep breath. Only mentally, you know, because physically, it's kind of noticeable, and I don't want to startle whoever it is next to me.

Of course, we're married, I think, so maybe deep breaths? Not so startling in the grand scheme of things. And it's certainly going to be only his first surprise.

So, physical deep breath.

I hear him groan in the bed next to me. Not a voice I recognize.

Okay, Rosenberg. You've delayed this long enough.

Time to wake up.

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