A Buffy: the Vampire Slayer/Airwolf
Disclaimer: No one you recognize is mine. They all belong to Joss Whedon and Belisarius Productions. In addition, some of the opening dialogue and scene come directly from the Airwolf
episode "Day of Jeopardy."
Rating: T, for now, because Hawke gets mad... and so does Dom, and Caitlin and Michael and... you get the idea. There are words used that are not of the happy variety.
Pairing: Caitlin/Hawke, eventually
Archive: sirius_writings and XanderZone (if I can get the formatting to work the way I want it to), TTH and Fanfiction.net... all others, please ask first.
Summary: What if Xander had the chance to be raised by his real father... Stringfellow Hawke?
A/N 1: The Plot-bunnies won't leave me alone until I finish this. Maybe if I give in, they'll let me work on some of my older stories, that have been hanging around, unfinished, for the last few years? But, hey, at least they're letting me get back into the B:tVS crossovers, and that's a step in the right direction, I think.
A/N 2: In the third-season Airwolf
episode "Day of Jeopardy," Hawke is asked to protect a former lover, a woman he hasn't seen in six years. At first, he wants nothing to do with her, and eventually, Dom gets him to tell the tale, or at least part of it.
Hawke: "We were in love... at least, I was. She was pregnant with my baby - didn't want it. Guess we were just too young."
Now, I'm not giving my opinion on abortion, one way or another, but it is made clear in the episode that Tess Dixon (Tess Rogers, when Hawke knew her), had chosen to have one, and that Hawke very much had not agreed with that choice. He wanted their baby, and - having little family as it was - took her choice rather hard.
So... what if she hadn't? What if she told Hawke she was going to, or that she had... but gave the baby up, instead, and Hawke never knew? What if the baby was adopted by a couple with the last name Harris?
The original airdate for the episode was January 25, 1986, and six years prior (whether it's exact or fudged a little bit), likely would have led to the child being born sometime between September and December 1980 (given that Tess was probably only two-three months pregnant when last she saw Hawke, and depending on how much fudging is done with that "six years"), so the dates work rather well with any of Xander's suspected birthdates.
All four seasons of Airwolf are available at Hulu for free viewing (though I tend to ignore - or search for plot-holes in - much of the fourth). I'd recommend watching "Day of Jeopardy" before reading this story, but it's not strictly necessary (though it's a very interesting episode, and well worth watching, even if I'm not particularly fond of Tess, for reasons that have nothing to do with her past with Hawke). The story starts after a rather long chase sequence that ends with an exploding pickup full of bad guys, and a bullet-riddled semi containing Tess and Hawke. Hawke has exited the semi and come around to Tess's side; Tess is still sitting there, rather dazed.
So... on with the story...Wolfpup~~~Wolfpup~~~Wolfpup~~~Wolfpup~~~Wolfpup
"You never have forgiven me, Hawke."
There was a whirlwind of thoughts whipping through Stringfellow Hawke's mind as he stood staring at his former lover, almost holding her. She was a devastated woman, and Hawke, for all his attempts to isolate himself from the world, did not have it in him to stand by and do nothing while someone was in pain... particularly when that someone had once held a place in his heart. Still, there was one thing he had to say.
"I loved you, Tess. I really wanted our baby."
"I know." She paused for a moment, staring out the windshield of the bullet-riddled semi she'd not been able to move from, yet. She took a deep breath, almost as if she were bracing herself for a blow.
"I have to tell you something, Hawke, and I know you'll hate me for it, but I've been a coward long enough. When I told you I'd terminated the pregnancy, that we were too young... I lied. I thought if I told you I'd already done it, it would be easier to go through with it. I didn't want a baby then, not anybody's, but the look on your face when I told you... I'm sorry, Hawke."
"What...?" Hawke felt as though he'd been kicked in the gut. He couldn't seem to catch his breath for a moment, no matter how hard he tried. What did this mean? Did she have the baby, or did she just get an abortion later than she'd told him? If she had the baby, where was it?
"I couldn't do it, Hawke. I couldn't get rid of him, but I couldn't keep him, either. I wanted too much, then, and none of it would have been possible if I'd had to take care of a child. I tried to find you later, but you'd gone to ground, the way you do when someone's really hurt you, and I didn't look as hard as I should have. What kind of person am I that I found it easier to give him away to strangers than to give him to the father that would have loved him, just because I was afraid of seeing that condemnation in your eyes again? I'm a fool, Hawke, and I have been for a long time. Everything that's happened to me... it's no less than what I deserve for what I've done to the two of you."
Hawke wasn't going to deny that he was angry - hell, that he was furious
- but he still had a job to do. He needed to make sure that her husband didn't kill her before she could testify against him to a Senate Sub-Committee, and they needed to be on their way now. Besides, the pilot knew himself well enough to know that he needed a chance to calm down before completing this discussion. He wasn't sure if Tess would wait, but he had to try. Too much depended on maintaining his focus right now.
"This discussion isn't over, Tess," he said, his voice cool even while he kept a protective hand on her arm. Even if he did view her silence - that she'd kept his child from him - as a betrayal, that didn't change the fact that she was expecting her second child... her lover's child... a child she actually wanted. Even if he could have brought himself to hate her, for the sake of that child, he would protect her still.
As he helped her out of the semi, and walked with her to the Lady, Tess began to speak again. "I have to tell you what I know now, Hawke, or I might lose what little nerve I have left. I met them, the couple who adopted your boy. I wanted to make sure that he would go to good people. Their name was Harris. They called him Alexander, and I know they lived in California then, but I don't know where. If you find him, or he finds you, tell him I gave him up because he deserved better than what I was capable of giving him at the time."
Hawke said nothing, merely nodding, and helping her up into Airwolf. He turned his attention back to the flight and the threat to Tess's life, and for the moment, away from the distracting idea of his son.
Hours later, as Tess stood testifying before the Senate Sub-Committee, and every paid assassin had been eliminated, Hawke found himself taking Archangel aside for a little word. If anyone could find his boy, it would be the spymaster or one of his people.
"Michael, I've got a favor to ask..."