Golden Threads: Dawn and the Doctor on the Valiant
The Lost FilesDisclaimer:
I own the idea only. Joss owns Buffy, Torchwood is owned by, um...someone not me? No suing please!Summary:
Deleted scenes/outtakes from my completed works, Golden Threads, Tales from Atlantis, and A City is Not a Home. Fic:
Dawn and the Doctor on the ValiantSplainy:
This was written when I was planning many more chapters on board the Valiant, with more in-depth explainations of what Saxon was doing and had done to our fearsome heroes. I mention in GT itself that Dawn occasionally got to sit by the Doctor and just talk and this is one of those scenes.A/N:
As the summary says, this is primarily going to be scenes I wrote out but for one reason or another, cut out of my finished works. Right now, just because I got a little bit crazier with it than the others, most will be for my Torchwood/Buffy cross, Golden Threads. Enjoy. :D
“You know, I think I figured out why you keep pushing Jack away,” Dawn said, leaning on the wall next to the doghouse Saxon had put up for the Doctor. The Doctor, as usual, didn't say anything and since they were more or less alone in the room (only the guards were there), Dawn didn't feel the overwhelming need to be very very quiet. She still did, of course, but it wasn't cause she had to; it was cause she wanted to.
“You said Jack's a fact, an impossibility,” she continued. “That just looking at him is wrong but the thing is...you don't feel that way with me. Oh, you can say that's cause I'm different, but we both know that's not it. You run away from Jack because its what you do; you run from your problems, your past. If you stopped and faced him, truly faced him, it would mean you would have to own up to how he was created, what Rose did and what it cost everyone. It would mean letting go of the past that you've been running from by accepting its happened. And if you faced what happened, part of you would stop running cause not even you can run from a fact
. And that terrifies you.”
Again the Doctor didn't say anything but he was eyeing her out of the corner of his eye so Dawn knew he was listening. She smiled slightly.
“You told me once that you never stopped running; you didn't just mean literally, though I think Jack and Martha think you did. You meant figuratively too—you run because the idea of being caged, being caught in something like domesticity, scares you. But part of you wants it too and that scares you even more. That's why you take companions; you want to be free but you don't want do it alone. That's why most of your companions either leave on their own or you leave them behind, because you start getting comfortable with them, maybe domestic
, and the part of you that doesn't want to be caged, revolts at the idea. Oh, you don't mean to, of course, but you do.”
The Doctor shifted slightly and Dawn scooted over to lay her head on his shoulder. “Thing is, you have been domesticated and don't look at me like that, you know its true. Its why you keep coming back to Earth, why you keep taking humans as your companions. You feel at home on Earth. But having a home, a family, in a specific place isn't being caged, Doc. That's what I've been trying to teach you these past nine months. The sooner you accept you have a family, whether you wanted it or not, the happier I think you'll be.”
Having said her peace, she went quiet, the sounds of the Valiant going about his day-to-day business surrounding her. She knew in a few hours, if she was lucky, Saxon would order her back to the cell she shared with Jack. If she wasn't lucky, he'd probably kill her just for the pleasure it gave him. But for now, she was content to be by her brothers' side.