: Buffy & Co. belong to Joss & Co. Not mine, making no money.Previously
"Willow?" Buffy asked, almost softly enough to be a whisper. "How long have you been in love with me?"
"Well," Willow said as she looked at the floor of the van, "do you mean since I was, or since I realized it?" She looked up, right into Buffy's version of her "Resolve Face." "Um, as best as I can tell, that first day, when you blew off Cordy to spend time with me," she said, but then held her hand up. "But the first time I realized anything like that was when Vampire me came around, and I saw that loving women was a part of me, however you tried to shut Angel up."
Buffy grimaced at that. "I'm sorry, Will," she said. "I just didn't want to be pushing you where you might not want to go. But why didn't you tell me?"
"Probably for the same reason that you didn't tell me until recently." Willow put her head in her hands. "I love you, Buffy, and your happiness is way more important than a relationship that we might or might not have made work, especially when I thought you were straight. Besides, this way, I got your friendship, which was worth more than I wanted to risk, most times, especially when either you or I had a boyfriend."
"But - but what about when I came out to you?" Buffy asked. "Neither of us had boyfriends, then...you could have told me then!"
"Buffy, remember you were crushing on Tara already, and worried that I'd want you to move out? See friendship more important." Willow grinned. "And by the time we had moved past that, well, you were deep into a relationship with Tara and," she mumbled the rest, "therewereothercomplications."
"Other complications?" Tara asked, then thought of the three auras. "Oh. OH!" She turned to the front of the car. "Mr. Giles, could you drop us by Stevenson Hall? I think that we three need to have a serious talk."
Giles nodded and dropped the girls at the dormitory without further comment.
After they locked the door to Willow and Buffy's dorm room and sat on the beds, Tara turned to Buffy and said, "I think that you need to tell Willow how you feel and how long you've felt that way." As Buffy was about to reply to her, she held up her hand. "Tell her
. I know that you love me, Buffy."
Buffy closed her mouth, turned and took Willow's hands in her own. "Will, baby." She took a deep breath. "I love you. I've been in
love with you since I saw you at that water fountain. I wanted to tear Cordy's face off when she talked down to you like that." She squeezed Willow's hands. "As for why I didn't tell you, well, pretty much the same reasons you gave me, except knowing that someone so beautiful and kind was my friend gave me the strength to come out." She leaned forward and kissed Willow on the cheek. "I decided to do it because I thought you'd support me and I was attracted to Tara." She looked over at her girlfriend, who sat, smiling at both of them. "Oh, Tara, I'm in love with you too, you know that, right?" She put her head in her hands. "Shoot. I'm in love with two women. Can my love live get screwed up more?"
Tara smiled a crooked smile. "You forgot what the auras showed, Buffy." She turned to Willow. "Why don't you tell Buffy how you feel about me?" she asked. "Honestly."
Willow wrung her hands together and looked at the floor between Buffy and herself. "B-Buffy?" she asked. Seeing a nod from the corner of her eye, she continued. "I - don'tknowhowithappenedbutIthinkthatIfellinlovewithTaratooandcanyoueverforgiveme?"
Buffy took a moment to decipher the Willowbabble, then turned to Tara with a raised eyebrow. Tara replied with a nod, so Buffy took Willow's right hand in her left, while Tara came over, taking Willow's left hand and Buffy's right in her own.
"Willow," Buffy said softly. "I think that what the auras showed was that each of us loved the other two." As Willow gasped, Buffy squeezed her hand. "What we have to decide is whether we can handle all of us being together."
In later times, they would discuss who initiated that first kiss, Buffy or Willow, and as in most cases of this type, it didn't really matter. What did matter was that they both had leaned closely, and then they were kissing deeply, their tongues dueling as their hands roamed over each other's backs. This lasted for several minutes, until oxygen became an issue, and they sat back, panting heavily. Buffy recovered first, and said, "Well."
Willow said, "Well." She seemed about to say something else when she had her face turned to her left by her chin, and Tara kissed her, just as long and just as deeply.
Tara sat back and said, "Well...I think that we all seem to be in favor."
"We are, Tare," Buffy said, "The question is what everyone else is going to say." She put her finger to her chin and then smiled. "But first, let's get these beds together." Willow and Tara moved their legs out of the way as Buffy pushed the two beds together, then rolled out of the way as she jumped on the mattresses. "Yeah!"
They missed their classes the next day.