Chapter 4: Choices part 2
Chapter 4: Choices
A/N: This chapter will be in Edward and Buffy’s POV.
I looked at Buffy with mild hope and scrutiny. I could hear the truth in her words, but also for some reason I could feel her desperation and love pouring off of her in waves. I was shocked to say the least, because less than two hours ago I could feel such hatred and self-loathing. Never before have I been able to read people’s emotions. But not that I found my mate I am able to read her thought’s and feel what she feels.
Right now Buffy was feeling helpless and hopeless. I could feel her love for me and the pain that I had caused her. The pain that she was feeling was nothing like I had ever felt before. I vowed then and there not to ever hurt her again. I would NEVER leave her again.
“Edward, say something please…” Buffy whispered tears streaming down her face.
“I love you Buffy with all my heart and I vow to never hurt you again.” I said looking deep into her eyes.
The tears kept flowing down her face, but now they were tears of joy. Buffy smiled and leaned in to kiss me, I leaned in half way meeting her kiss. It was passionate kiss that we have shared since we have been together. Very slowly I broke the kiss, cupping her face in my hands and leaning my forehead onto hers and whispered, “I love you, Buffy Ann Summers.”
“And I love you Edward Cullen.”
“I hate to break you two apart but people are starting to stare and we really should be heading back before they really start to worry. Jasper is probably the most worried because he was the only one I told about the vision.” Alice whispered from behind Buffy.
“Okay Edward, let’s go home.” Buffy said to me and I smiled her favorite crooked smile at her. My heart soared at the thought that she still loved me and wanted to be with me. I knew from then on everything was about to change.
When we got back to Edward’s house I declared to my family that I would be staying here for the time being until I was completely sure that it was safe to be around them.
Edward, trying to earn some of my trust back had set me up in the room that was a hospital bedroom into my own room. Alice and I became close friends after what had happened a few days before. Alice helped me in more ways than one. After helping me decorate my new room, we would talk for hours on end about my life in Las Angeles, when I was called. From there I went on to tell her my life story in more detail than I did the first time.
For some reason unknown to us, I still needed sleep. Only a few hours’ sleep was enough for me but is still a surprise to all of us. Another thing was that I my eyes were still the same color as before, they didn’t while change along with my body when I became a vampire.
Every now and then I would wake up screaming from a nightmare of what happened that lead up to me being changed. Alice made it her priority that I get some good sleep so she made a dream catcher for me. To my surprise it helped immensely.
For weeks it was hard on me. Even though I clearly still loved Edward, there was a trust issue there. My biggest fear was that he would leave me again. But as time wore on that fear seemed to leave me, as Edward was also a source of balance in my life, having him around was wonderful but at the same time it was hurting me. Most of my memories were bad and the haunted me when I was awake, and not so often anymore, in my dreams.
After weeks of training the Cullen family on how to fight my type of vampires, we would go hunting for the two vampires left that had killed my human body. I could fight better than I could before and being Immortal helped a lot too.
It only took two weeks for them to get it down to a t. From there I knew that I was ready to face my demons, one of which was to face my family.