13th April 1998
I almost had that dream again last night. It went as it usually did for a while but at the end when the doors are meant to open onto the table and the machines and the man, they didn't. Instead they opened onto a large meadow with flowers and a river and the end of it. The two men by me disappeared and I was alone. I felt better than I had done for months and started to run through the grass.
When I woke up though I felt worse then I had ever felt before even though I had a nice dream instead of the bad one.
I've been asleep for most of the past two days so Oz couldn't read any more of Romeo and Juliet to me. But this morning I was awake enough for Oz to read to me and he did all morning even though it did leave me feeling very tired at the end of it all. We've almost finished Act 5 now and Romeo has come back to Verona now.
I don't think Oz will be able to finish reading today but he said he thinks we could finish it tomorrow if I'm up to it. I hope that we can finish the story tomorrow. Even though I'll be sad that it's over, I know that it will have a happy ending and that it will be brilliant to listen to. I just need to make sure that I get enough sleep tonight as I feel very tired. I don't think I can write any more. I just need to sleep.