Disclaimer: I don't own Buffy, I don't own Harry Potter, and I don't own Skipper-dolls, oh wait... no.
A/N: The beginning of this has been lying around on my hard-disk for a year. I knew what I wanted to say, but not how I wanted it to turn out. And somehow it all loosened yesterday, when I didn't have my own machine to type it in on... And it wasn't until I wrote the end that I realised that I'd gone and done the unthinkable: I'd begun another Harry Potter crossover that I don't know how is going to end. Of course I've got ideas. Loads of ideas. And not much time to write it in. But for now. Hope you enjoy this little ficlet.
Yesterday I burnt all my diaries.
Since I love to write stuff in them, just call me Harriet the Spy, this might come as a shock to someone, at least it did to Mom and Buffy. If they are Mom and Buffy, of course Buffy is Buffy, but Mom might not be Mom, but Joyce. Anyway, I should have set fire on them outside. It was stupid of me not to, as the fire-alarm warned them.
As I really don't exist, would the flames be fake too?
My memories were fake. Everything was fake. I'm fake, like a Skipper-doll that someone enlarged and threw some life in.
I bleed. I cry. I hurt. Like any normal human being would. But I'm not human. I'm a monster.
Buffy thinks I don't know she kills monsters. I really don't know why she thinks that?
I met Angel, shaked his hand. The man had no pulse. And he went missing for most of the summer after terrorizing Buffy and her friends.
Oh, and Xander is also a blabbermouth. Especially if you've got some chocolate to tempt with. Plus I know Spike, now.
Is Buffy going to kill me now that she knows?
They told me they love me, nevertheless. But what if their memories, and mine, just go poof in the air one day? Will they still love me then? Will I still love them? Or will they throw me out?
What happens when there's no more threat to the energy? Will it evolve into something else, taking me with it in the process?
My life is out of wack. I bet Harry never had to deal with these kind of thoughts. Of course he's
a fictional character, but still..
"God, I wish I were at Hogwarts."