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Summary: Oneshot. Buffy reflects on her job as Anne the Waitress and the truckers that sexually harass her on a daily basis. Based on the diner scene in the episode Anne from Season 3. Rated for mentions of sexual harassment.

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BtVS/AtS Non-Crossover > DramaBuffyKaibaHuntFR1317750256329 Sep 1229 Sep 12Yes
Hey there! Here’s a new Buffy the Vampire Slayer oneshot I cooked up one day. I was watching the Buffy episode Anne from Season 3, and I took a liking to the diner scene from that episode. It was then that I got to wondering... what were Buffy’s thoughts during that very scene? So this is what I cooked up. Hope you like it! :)

Disclaimer: Genius Joss Whedon owns Buffy the Vampire Slayer. The lyrics to Boulevard of Broken Dreams by Green Day belong to their respective owners. I own the fanfics I cook up from time to time.


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If They Only Knew Who I Was

I walk a lonely road,
The only one that I have ever known
Don’t know where it goes,
But it’s home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
When the city sleeps
And I’m the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow’s the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart’s the only thing that’s beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
‛til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah, aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah

I’m walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What’s fucked up when everything’s all right
Check my vital signs
To know I’m still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow’s the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart’s the only thing that’s beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
‛til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah, aaah-ah
Ah-ah, ah-ah

I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
When the city sleeps
And I’m the only one and I walk a...

My shadow’s the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart’s the only thing that’s beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
‛til then I walk alone...

--Green Day, Boulevard of Broken Dreams


Buffy doesn’t like her job as a waitress at Helen’s Kitchen, but she knows it’s the only work she can find in order to pay the rent for her apartment in Los Angeles, also known as the City of Lost Angels. Then there is the having to deal with the middle-aged male customers, especially the truckers, who frequent the diner and, upon seeing Buffy, refer to her as “baby”, “peaches”, “sweetheart” and “doll” among other things.

They see her as an object rather than a person. Their eyes are full of lust and seem to follow her everywhere as she moves from table to table, and are usually trained on her rump. If only they would just move on and look at another waitress rather than Buffy...

But they don’t. Buffy knows this. She shudders at the thoughts they might be having when it comes to her. She still winces as she sits down on her bed. Then she remembers the slap on the rump given to her by the roughneck friend of Trucker #1, who had referred to her as “Peaches” and then, when she said for him to pay at the counter, asked her if she was sure she didn’t want him to work it off for her. She then remembers glaring at Trucker #1, catching the meaning he had done his best to keep hidden behind those words, while his friend just laughed.

Apparently, they have never been taught to respect a woman, or seen how a gentleman would treat a lady back in the Victorian times, she thinks.

Now is the time where Buffy wishes she hadn’t made the choice to lay low and keep a low profile. Where Buffy the Vampire Slayer would drag them outside and give them a much-needed butt-kicking, Anne the Waitress just lets it go and walks away.

What they do – how they treat her – is something she has read about all too well.

Sexual harassment.

Again, she shudders, but this time at the two words that have come to her mind just now. No matter the front of a blonde bimbo she puts on for the world, Buffy knows what sexual harassment is. The dictionary defines it as either “uninvited and unwelcome verbal or physical behavior of a sexual nature” or “the persistent unwelcome directing of sexual remarks and looks, and unnecessary physical contact at a person, usually a woman, especially in the workplace”.

Well, now I know what that feels like myself, she thinks.

Well, what do you think? Nice feedback is appreciated, of course. :)

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