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“Do you think you would be able to change again?” asked Giles. “I know you’re afraid, but I think it would help me find out what you are.”
“Okay, I’ll try.” Xander didn’t look very happy, but he still closed his eyes and tried to concentrate. He thought about his last change and tried to figure out what had caused it. He knew that he was very angry then, so he tried to remember exactly what he felt. After a few minutes he opened his eyes and asked the others “Did it work? Did anything change?”
They all shook their heads. Giles suggested “If I may, I think you’re concentrating too hard on the last time it happened. Try concentrating on the change itself. Try to visualize yourself already changed or changing.”
Xander nodded and closed his eyes. He thought about his face, how it had felt, how his black eyes and sharp teeth had looked like. He imagined his nails lengthen, he could almost feel them changing. He heard Willow squeak and the others gasp for breath. He knew that he had done it, so he opened his eyes.
“What do you think?” he said, trying to sound funny.
“Good Lord!” gasped Giles. “I think I know…”
Willow interrupted him “What’s wrong with your voice?”
“What do you mean?” said Xander and only then noticed that his voice sounded different, deeper. “Oh that… I haven’t even noticed it till now. And by the way, really? After you saw the change, that’s what’s bothering you the most. My voice?”
“Yes, I have seen worst creatures than you,” answered Willow.
“Geeeeee, thanks,” said Xander sarcastically, but really he was trying to hide a smile “I’m not the worst you’ve ever seen.”
“That’s not what I meant and you know it,” said Willow “and don’t you think I can’t see you trying to hide a smile.”
Giles started cleaning his glasses “If you two are done, I think we have more pressing issues at hand.” He put his glasses back and came closer to Xander. He lifted his hands to touch his face, but changed his mind and rather asked for permission “Can I?”
“Of course,” answered Xander.
Giles touched Xander’s face. It felt the same. He moved his hands and touched Xander’s fangs. He touched the tip of one of his fangs, which were very sharp, and he cut his finger on it. He quickly moved his hand away, but not before a drop of his blood dropped into Xander’s mouth. Giles was looking at his finger so he didn’t noticed Xander’s expression at the taste of blood. But Buffy and Willow noticed it. They saw him close his eyes and his satisfied expression.
“Xander are you okay?” asked Buffy.
“Mhm,” answered Xander, but his expression didn’t change. After a few moments he opened his eyes “I didn’t just… I did didn’t I? I enjoyed the taste of blood.”
Giles finally stopped looking at his finger and looked at Xander. “I think that there’s more to this change, than just the physical changes. You said yourself yesterday, but I hadn’t paid it much attention, that you haven’t been very hungry recently. I think that whatever you have become, you now need blood to survive.”
“No. I don’t want to drink blood, there must be something you can do about it,” said terrified Xander.
“I can’t do anything about that, but if this is the first time you have tasted blood since the change began I don’t think you’ll need a lot of it to survive. At least not jet. I can’t say if the change is completed or not, but I think I know what you are,” the watcher started to reassure Xander.
“What? What am I?”
“You look like a type of demon in know of, but it shouldn’t be possible, because they were supposed to be extinct,” said Giles and went to one of his books and picked it up.
“Giles just tell me!” snapped Xander.
Giles didn’t answer him. Instead he was looking through the book in his hand. Finally he stopped and showed the page to Xander. He looked at it and saw a picture of a creature that looked similar to him.
“This is a type of demon the Watcher Council thought has been extinct for at least a century. Last sighting of it was in the nineteenth century. The Council doesn’t know much about it. We know that they were once a powerful race, but then they were hunted down to extinction. The name of the species is Akhkharu,” said Giles.
“Akawhat?” interrupted Buffy.
“Whatever. Where do you get that sort of names anyway?” wondered Buffy.
“The name comes from ancient Sumerian…” Giles started to explain.
Buffy stopped him “Aaaaa. Forget it. I don’t really want to know.”
“As I was saying before you interrupted me the species was thought to be extinct, but I guess that didn’t really happened or you wouldn’t be here,” said Giles while looking at Xander.
“Were they dangerous? Did they kill humans?” asked Xander.
“I don’t know. There isn’t a lot written about them in the books I have here, so I don’t think they will be of any help. But even if they were dangerous, they’re not you Xander. You make your own choices,” answered Giles. For a few moments everyone was silent and then Giles continued “Now I think it would be best if you tell me everything you know about your birth parents.”
Xander looked at the floor. “I don’t know anything,” he said and took the papers his adopted parents gave him. “That’s all I have about my adoption and nowhere inside them does it state my parents’ names.” He gave Giles the papers. “All I have learned from them is that I was found abandoned in the Old City.”
Giles took the papers and went through them.
“Old City. Where did I hear that name?” Willow was trying to remember. She knew that she had heard it recently. And then it came to her “Old City. The spell I did, it showed that one of your parents was in Old City. They might live there.”
Xander was getting excited “I have to go there, I have to find them.”
“I know. I will go with you,” said Willow.
“Thank you,” said Xander and looked at Buffy.
“I would love to come with you, but I can’t. I have to go visit my father in two days. My mother would never let me go with you,” said Buffy.
“This is nice and all, but how are you going to find them there and how are you going to get there. Old City is in Canada and I don’t think you can go to there with a car” said Giles.
“I have some money. I have been saving it because I thought I was going to go out of Sunnydale to University, but since I have decided to stay here I don’t really need it at the moment. I think I have enough for two airplane tickets,” said Willow and continued “If we buy them now we could leave in a few days.” She turned to Giles “Are you coming with us too?”
“I can’t, I have to stay here,” answer Buffy’s watcher.
“Okay, so I’ll buy us a plane tickets from Los Angeles to Old City as soon as possible,” said Willow and turned to Giles. “Giles do you have a computer?” Seeing the look on his face she answered herself “Of course you don’t. I’ll go home then and buy tickets.”
“Can I come with you? I’m not welcomed home anymore. After seeing me change my parents forbid me from ever coming back,” explained Xander.
“Of course you can! You know you’re always welcome at my place,” she answered and they turned to leave. She called out “When I get the tickets I will call you both and tell you when we’re going. Bye.”
On the way to her house Willow asked Xander “How are you really?”
“I don’t know,” he answered. “I never expected any of this to happen to me. I always thought I was normal. And now… I have to find my parents and find out what’s happening to me,” he stopped talking, but after a few steps he continued “I think the biggest shock was blood. The taste of it… it was amazing Willow, but I don’t want to become a monster, I don’t want to drink blood for the rest of my life.”
Willow saw his distress. She turned to him and hugged him “You’re not a monster; you could never be a monster.”
“But how do you know? What if I’m not able to control it?” whispered Xander.
“We will find a way. Your parents may hold all the answers you need.” Willow comforted him.
“I know it’s just…” started Xander, but she interrupted him.
“Ssssshhh, it will be okay, you’ll see,” said Willow and the two friends continued their walk in silence.