Title: Jenny's Honor
Fandoms: Buffy the Vampire Slayer/Vorkosigan universe (Lois McMaster Bujold's books)
Spoilers: BtVS season 2
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Disclaimer: Buffy the Vampire Slayer is the property of Joss Whedon and Mutant Enemy. The Vorkosigan universe will always and forever belong to Lois McMaster Bujold. I own nothing.
Summary: Jenny's legacy will live on, in more than just memories. (20 minutes with Jenny challenge)
Getting sent to Sunnydale was a punishment. I knew that right from the beginning - how could I not? So many of the family were better suited for it. Cousin Katia is actually the same age as the children, and could have become real friends with them. Greg would have gotten along with Rupert far better than I'll ever manage. And if they absolutely needed it to be a computer teacher, well, Charles knows just as much as I do, and he wouldn't have had to leave a job he loved.
But even beyond that, I knew it was a punishment because everyone did. Uncle Enyos made it no secret that I had failed him, failed the family. But no matter how many times I was told that a Kalderash baby must be raised by the Clan, mine wouldn't be. Mine is with his father, safe, away from this all. His father, whom I loved, but not enough to drag him into this mess. Or perhaps too much to do so.
Eric understood and Miles... well, Miles is still too little to grasp that mommy's gone. It was the best gift I could give them - aside from the packet of papers I'd arranged to have delivered after I was ordered to Sunnydale. My will, the declaration of full custody for Eric, and the final paper, the one that no Kalderash would ever expect. My instructions, spelled out in plain language under my lawyer's letterhead, that Miles have no contact with my family, not even in the event of the death of both parents. Signed, notarized, filed in as many places as I could think of - leaving Eric to one day explain to our baby just precisely why, however he chooses.
Eric will do what's best for Miles, of that I have no doubt. So maybe one day he'll explain how mommy's family was dangerous, and she was afraid of them, and afraid for him. Because the way things are going in Sunnydale, I'm starting to think I'm not going to be around to tell him myself.
If it costs my life to ensure that his is free, then it's a worthwhile trade. So have a good life, Miles Naismith. Grow, love, and find joy. Know that your heart will always be more important than your name, and that your mother loved you, very much.