Tears Of A Grief Stricken Vampire
Disclaimer: Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Charmed don’t belong to me. The songs When She Loved Me by Sarah McLachan and Everything I Do (I’d Do It For You) by Bryan Adams also don’t belong to me. Please don’t sue me. I have nothing.
Summary: Piper walked to a park near P3 and met an emotionally distraught Spike. He broke down crying and she comforted him and they talk. Piper then invited Spike back to P3 in an attempt to lift his spirits.
Author’s Note: This is a Spike/Piper friendship story. This is also a Buffy/Spike romance story. Please be gentle and don’t flame me, please and thank you.
Ten minutes later…
Piper sat behind her usual table with Phoebe and Paige staring at the bar where Spike was sitting. He was quiet when he and Piper walked back to P3 and the first place he went when they got there was the bar. He hadn’t moved since. This worried her. She didn’t know Spike but she felt worried and concerned for her new friend. When she introduced Spike to Phoebe and Paige, all he said was “Pleasure to meet you,” and then without a word he walked to the bar. Phoebe noticed the worried look on her sister’s face and spoke to her.
“Hey, are you all right?” she asked.
Piper broke he glaze on Spike and turned to Phoebe. “I’m worried about our new friend over here. There’s something about him that I just can’t explain. Almost as if he was once something…”
“Evil?” Paige supplied.
Piper stared at her. “Right.”
“Why don’t you go and ask him?” Paige asked.
“No way!!” Piper exclaimed, “I’m not going up to him and ask ‘Are you a demon?’ He’ll think I’m crazy.”
Phoebe turned to see Spike stumble from the stool he was sitting on and falling to the ground. She got up and ran to him. His body was shaking and she could tell that he was crying again.
“Buffy!!” he wailed. Spike lifted a beer bottle in his hand to his mouth and poured the beer down his throat.
“Piper!! Paige!!” Phoebe shouted. The two sisters ran from the table and to their sister and Spike. Phoebe went to help Spike to his feet but when she touched his arm she felt a premonition coming over her like a wave.
Phoebe saw the horrifying sight of a young woman hanging on the wall with railroad spikes all over her body. Spike and another woman, Phoebe didn’t recognize, stood there laughing evilly and in amusement.
Phoebe recovered from the premonition but not from the shock and disbelief that Spike was the subject of the premonition and that he was evil. She barely heard her sisters’ concerned voices asking her if she was all right. She could smell the alcohol in his breath and feel the pain and the remorse that he was feeling. Spike threw himself in Piper’s arms and sobbed uncontrollably. Piper stole a worried look from Paige before looking back at Phoebe.
“Let’s take him home with us.” She said. “I seriously doubt he has any place to stay.”
Phoebe and Paige nodded their heads and helped Piper get Spike to her car.
Twenty minutes later…
The three Halliwell sisters helped Spike out of the car and inside the Manor in a swift motion. He cried though the whole drive and tried to escape the car a few times before Phoebe and Piper managed to calm him down. Once they were inside, Paige helped Spike upstairs and took him to the guest room while Phoebe and Piper stood out the living room.
“In your premonition, what did you see?” Piper asked.
“I saw a woman hanging on a wall with railroad spikes all over her body. Then Spike and another woman laughing at the woman and kissing each other. It’s almost if he is evil.”
“That’s because he was evil.”
Piper and Phoebe turned to see Leo orbing in. He had a very apphensive look on his face.
“Was? What is he?” Phoebe asked.
“Spike is a vampire. Sired by another vampire named Drusilla. In his mortal life, he was a future Whitelighter and a not so very good poet. He earned the nickname William the Bloody because of that. Spike came to America close to six years ago to cure Drusilla after an attack in Hungary many years back. He and Drusilla left North America about several months after that and then he came back this time alone.”
Piper, despite her pity for Spike, felt her anger rising to the boiling point. “Why did he come back alone?” she asked.
Leo answered her question as evenly as possible. “Drusilla ditched him after they left California and he came back to find a way to make her love him again then he left California again to win her back. But it didn’t work, so he returned to California and he hadn’t left here since then until recently.”
“What do you mean ‘until recently’?” Piper demanded.
“Spike left for Africa about a few days ago and he had his soul restored to him. That’s why he’s upset, Piper. He’s feeling the guilt, the pain and the remorse for the crimes he committed as a vampire. He still has a chance to become a Whitelighter now that he has a soul.”
Phoebe’s eyes widened. “So you’re saying that Spike was a future Whitelighter when he was human and now that he is a vampire with a soul he still has a chance of becoming a…”
“A Whitelighter? If he chooses the right path then yes. He has a chance.” Leo replied.
“How did you know about Spike?” Piper asked.
“The Elders has been watching him and his actions since he became a vampire. They assigned me to watch Spike after he got a chip implanted in him.”
“A chip?” Piper said asking for a translation.
“Spike was captured by a military group called the Initiative. They implanted a computer chip in his brain that prevents him from harming humans. When the Elders found out about this, they assigned me to watch over him and see that he is on his way to redemption.” Leo replied.
“Is he on his way to redemption?” Piper asked.
“Yes, Piper. He is. But first he has to forgive himself for everything he’s done for the last one hundred and thirty years. We can help him.”
“We?” Piper and Phoebe said together.
“The Elders think that with help and guidance Spike would be able to cope with he had done.”
“Are you suggesting that we help Spike deal with everything he has done?” Phoebe asked.
“That’s exactly what I’m saying.” Leo said.
“How? We’re witches, not therapists.” Piper protested.
“Spike feels terrible for everything he did including not telling us who he was and for nearly raping the woman he loved.”
Piper, Phoebe and Leo turned to see Paige standing on top of the stairs. She obliviously was listening to the conversation and had a look of repressed anger and worry on her face.
“He raped a woman?” Piper asked shocked.
“He almost did.” Paige corrected her, “He was out of control and madly in love with this girl that he wasn’t thinking straight. He’s feeling so horrible about it that he wants to die. It’s killing him. It’s really killing him.”
Now Piper was even more worried and upset. Ignoring her sisters and husband, she ran upstairs to the guest room and found Spike lying on the bed. He was still crying and his body wracked with sobs. Fighting back tears, Piper sat down on the bed beside the distraught vampire’s head. She laid a hand on his arm. He lifted his head and sobbed harder when he saw who it was.
“How can you even look at me?” he sobbed, “God, I’m a killer. A mindless, heartless killer. I killed all those people. I don’t deserve to live.”
Piper choked back a sob and spoke in a clear voice. “That’s not true, Spike.”
“It is.” Spike choked out a reply.
“No it’s not.” Piper insisted, “You’re given a chance to redeem yourself. I can help you do that. We can help you do that. If you let us. Will you let us help you, Spike?”
Spike sobbed even harder and nodded his head at her. Piper took him into her arms and comforted him. He buried his face into her shoulder. Piper held him as he cried. She let her own tears fall. As she was comforting him, she heard music coming from Paige’s room. A song that she never heard before.
When somebody loved me
Everything was beautiful
Every hour we spent together
Lives within my heart
And when she was sad
I was there to dry her tears
And when she was happy so was I
When she loved me
Piper felt Spike’s tears soaking her shirt. At that point she didn’t care. All she cared about was comforting the man she’s calling friend. Spike could feel Piper’s tears though his back shirt. That made him cry harder. He felt terrible for Buffy, for the people he killed and for Piper and her sisters. He became close to raping Buffy and betraying Piper, Phoebe and Paige because he didn’t tell them who he was. The music he heard in the background made him sob even more. It reminded him of the time when Buffy loved him and that fateful day in the bathroom. Spike tightened his hold on Piper and sobbed.
“I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.” He said over and over again between sobs.
“It’s okay. Everything’s going to be okay.” Piper whispered. She and Spike clung onto each other like lost children and as Piper was comforting the distraught vampire, the music played once again.
Through the summer and the fall
We had each other that was all
Just she and I together
Like it was meant to be
And she was lonely
I was there to comfort her
And I knew that she loved me